[Baahh I really hate the work computer. Sorry the text post looks wierd on this computer so I kinda just deleted what came before it since apparently only half of my original post showed??]
Ah… yes yes. Exactly. I will admit I was upset when Sun died because I knew the resserection scene was going to absolutely murder me but I didn’t really have any ill-feelings towards Roland since I was suspicious of everything since like. Day 1. [Don’t think you can hide those signs from me Yu Wo. I noticed them and waited patiently for my headcannons to be proven.]
Everything you said is true. Roland is very much like Grisia and extremely selfless. I totally get that. I’m kinda just to lazy at this point to even go through all the points which made me think he’s selfless.
I was thinking that is what Roland wanted as well since he had no issue with anything when Grisia has told him a few times that Roland should be burnt at the stake or something like that. He is like the first to ever defend Grisia if someone ever says that he’s not a good Sun Knight.
Even though he feels uncomfortable being the Hell Knight, I feel as though he understands that Grisia needs for him to take the role so Elijah could be set free and to make Grisia happy. He doesn’t want his friend to go through troubles, hurt himself, or anything like that. Over his own feelings, he values his friend’s safety and happiness over all of that. He wants to protect his friend and if needed be, sacrifice his own self for Grisia.
He’s very smart and is always thinking logically about what is the best course of action. Roland is definitely not some cold-hearted guy or whatever if that’s what people are saying. [I never bother reading the comments section so I dunno]
There is no way that Roland stopped caring. Why else would he be so upset with Grisia wanting to see him face to face, or the willingness to answer a question due to their ‘friendship’ or calling him Sun instead of Grisia like the other Knight Captains do, etc. There is just so much going on that I can’t help but find it extremely fishy.
I’m casting suspicious gazes upon the meeting place that Roland specified. The questions that he asked Sun, telling him that maybe his eyesight can return, tell him to see the people he wants to see, and ESPECIALLY the thing he wanted to ask but stopped himself. SHUT UP ROLAND, YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A SWEET FREAKING SUGAR ANGEL.
((Girl, I would run 10 miles if Grisia doesn’t ask anything along those lines))
[Sssssh, it’s fine, don’t worry! I know what semi-working tumblr is like, ahaha;;;;]
Ahaha, I developed a habit of stalking the comments section on the chapters that are released now (I never bothered about reading the comments on the older chapters though). Hm, let me find what I wrote back then. Based on knowledge up to volume 6 prologue, so there’s some inaccuracies concerning the birth process of the Demon King here (basically, at that time I thought Roland took Grisia’s “shard” like what transferred to Grisia from Charlotte when he killed her, and that there’s just some kind of incubation time for becoming the Demon King, and that Grisia’s body can still act as a vessel if the shards were transferred to him, but not that he’d automatically get his full candidate status back as soon as he revived)
So yeah, except for an update on how becoming the Demon King works, my believes about Roland haven’t changed much since that time. I believe Roland isn’t just the Hell Knight for Grisia and Elijah’s sake but really wants it. Except, he believes he doesn’t deserve it, so Elijah might be the excuse he used to allow himself the luxury of standing beside the other Twelve Holy Knights. “I’m an undead creature that should be destroyed, but for now, they need me to play this part, it’s duty, I can’t let them down, even if I don’t deserve this kind of happiness.” Which is why he’d willingly become the enemy of the world if he can grant Grisia the happiness of staying with his brothers that way.
But Roland also witnessed how Grisia acted in his dark state after defeating Charlotte; not only how he was trying to do the right thing for everyone else’s safety by maybe becoming the Demon King anyway, but also how he said being in that state felt great, and how he didn’t want to be the Sun Knight anymore. Also, he knows all too well how Grisia dislikes others making decisions for him (even if he willingly goes by what he believes would be better for others and putting himself second), so I think in the end he’ll let Grisia decide which of them eventually becomes the Demon King. As long as it’s Grisia’s will, he’d go along with either.